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FED

One thing that has always been a struggle for me is fasting. I’ve tried it many times in the past but it’s always been a real big challenge for me to follow through with. So to be honest fasting is something I try to avoid and always just tell myself that it’s not my thing. 

But for this Good Friday God gave me conviction since last week to fast for this day. As I was reading both Matthew and Mark this week I kept running across Jesus teaching about fasting and it gave me even more conviction. So I decided to do it and do it with a right heart, for the right reason and continue to feed myself with other things instead of food throughout the day, like scripture, worship, prayer and quiet time. 

I started off my day going to morning prayer service at 5:30. It was so nice being in the sanctuary that early, looking at the cross and praying out my heart and crying out to Jesus on such a significant day. In the afternoon I went to a state park about 40 minutes away and hiked a couple miles while praying and stopping every once in a while to read scripture and gaze upon God’s creation. Then before going to service I spent time in my room finishing up reading the book of Matthew. 

Our service went great this evening. It’s always a blessing to be able to preach on Jesus’ last words on the cross and basking in that moment with our congregation. To end the service we took communion and that was the first thing I ate all day. It was really special consuming communion as my first meal and really understanding how Jesus’ body and blood really is all I need in my life to give me life. 

All day today while I was fasting and spending time with God and filling myself up spiritually I was able to realize and be reminded again how important it is to fill our hearts with Him. It’s so important to not be reliant on the worldly things for sustainability and life but rather to be fed by the Spirit. This Good Friday really was special for me and opportunity to truly look upon Jesus and the cross. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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READ

A sad/funny/ironic story is that the first book I ever finished from front to back was in 2013, only 4 years ago. It was the book “Crazy Love” by Francis Chan. But before that I never read, ever. Reading was something I despised and couldn’t find interest for. 

But the ironic thing is that I am about to graduate with my Biblical Studies degree by the end of this year and if anyone knows anything about Biblical Studies should know all we do is read books and write papers. It’s funny how God works sometimes. But through the years I have truly gained a respect and enjoyment for reading, the reason is because I have realized how much I can learn through other people’s writings. More I read more I realize there is so much more to learn. And a weird thing is I desire that. 

Tonight I was reading three different pieces. 1.) a book on ecological theology and the chapter I was reading focused on plastics and our understanding and response to waste and how our wastefulness effects our perspectives on many things in life. 2.) I started a book for my independent study on Genesis. This book focuses on child sacrifice, focusing on the story of Abraham and Isaac, and its written by a Jewish Rabbi. 3.) I’m reading through the book of Mark this week, focusing on Jesus during my personal devotion times for Holy Week. 

 

As I was reading these 3 different books and realizing how different each one was but also how informative and impactive they are I faced a revelation: there is so much to learn. Learning about God, my own faith, discipleship, history etc. is endless. That reveals so much about God and His character, how endless He truly is. Even though I may never fully know and understand Him, I want to do what I can to pursue knowing Him more. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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A NEW MEANING 

Today was Palm Sunday and something I realized was that for all my life Palm Sunday didn’t really hold much significance in my heart. I always understand the basic story of Jesus entering into Jerusalem and the importance of all that and how He was fulfilling prophecy and how just in a few days He would be taking the cross. I knew all that stuff but what I realized was that I just knew the narrative but didn’t truly know what it meant to me. 

But it all hit me at once this morning. Before service I spent some time reading through John 12 and looking over the story and that’s when it began to sink in a little more. God started to open my eyes to see this story with my heart. And then while I was opening in prayer before my sermon is where I was completely ravished. 

In that moment was when the meaning of Palm Sunday meant something to me personally. God encouraged me to put myself in Jesus’ shoes. To imagine how He was feeling as He was entering into Jerusalem sitting on the back of a donkey, looking upon the people bowing before Him worshipping His name. But to know that those same people would be the ones betraying Him, but even so still looking upon them with love and acceptance. 

That revelation Hit me in the heart. Why? Because I am the person waving the Palm branches singing His praises who turns away. But still Jesus looks at me, loves me and goes to the cross for me. 

I am beyond thankful for what God has done in my heart this morning. He has given this day a new meaning in my life. He has allowed me to have a new perspective in understanding what Jesus has done for me and this world and what part we have in that. 

I saw God today.

Did you?

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OPEN BIBLE 

Yesterday was such a busy Sunday I felt like a zombie once I got home which caused me to not be able to do some homework I planned doing. I went to bed early last night and pushed my work to today. Surprising enough I still felt like a zombie today lol but the work had to get done. After class I worked on my paper from 4-7 then ate dinner then went back working from 8:30-10:30 and finished! 

Writing the paper was obviously exhausting but it was actually more enjoyable than I expected. Yeah it took a lot of time but I really did try to make the best of it. The paper was on a topic I never really studied; sexuality in the New Testament, so I was able to learn loss of new information. 

As I was finishing up my paper at Starbucks after dinner I saw something that put a huge smile on my face. Open Bibles. At two separate tables in Starbucks were people with their Bibles. One man looked like maybe he was a pastor doing some sermon preparation and at another table was a group of 3 women that seemed to be having a small Bible study. It was ironic because this specific Starbucks was the one where I first get convicted to start this blog. 

For some reason when I see people digging into the Word in public it fills me with joy. Joy to see my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ whom I don’t even know, growing in that moment. Being able to witness people take part in hearing what God is revealing to them, seeing individuals’ desire and intentionality really brings me joy. Seeing a stranger reading the Word to me is seeing someone interacting with God in that very moment. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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A FEW VERSES

For my Corinthians class today our professor handed out an assignment to do in class with a partner. We were to do exegesis of a few verses in Corinthians to dig deeper into what Paul was writing about. We had an hour to do it before discussing in class so at first my partner and I thought we could run through it and finish in about 30 mins and spend the rest of the time playing games lol. In reality we weren’t even able to complete it in the hour. 

The reason was because it was actually really interesting. We thought it would just be an assignment but rather it really was a lesson. In that hour of analyzing only a few verses God revealed so much to me personally. It was extremely applicable and it felt like God really intended this time for me. Also it was great to hear how my friend interpreted the verses and see his point view as well. 

What I thought would be an easy assignment, was actually a time of much reflection and thought. Some of the things we discussed were things I really needed to hear. Through an assignment god delivered affirmation and conviction. Moments like these I am so thankful to have the opportunity to study the Bible academically which actually feeds into my heart spiritually and personally. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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CONVERSATIONS WITH DAD

My mom has caught the cold pretty bad today, so for dinner my dad, sister and I went out without her. After getting back home we were all just hanging out in the living toom talking and having a good time. That’s when randomly my dad and I started to have conversation on theology, the Bible and other related things. 

My dad and I are super close and we talk a lot and a lot of the the times our conversations are about faith but what I’ve realized is it’s always me talking and I haven’t had much opportunity to hear my dad’s understandings and his view on things. So for about an hour we sat there discussing various topics and getting really deep. My favorite part about the conversation was hearing about bible stories he really liked and his reasons why. It was such a blessing to get to know in more depth how my dad viewed things and how much the Bible meant to him. 

I am so thankful and blessed to have a dad like mine who I can sit with and talk about my faith openly and be vulnerable. He has always been someone who I truly looked up to in many aspects of life and especially his faith. I love how we can challenge eachother now and honestly grow together. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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STUDYING THE WORD

Out of nowhere God suddenly put a lot on my plate all at once. A lot to do and a lot to think about, but I am very thankful that He continues to challenge me and push towards doing more. But to be honest I was feeling a little overwhelmed today. 

While preparing my sermons for tomorrow I faced a dilemma between flesh and spirit. I had to paths in front of me I could take. The first one would be to speak on something I felt confident on, which would make the preparing much more easy and quick. Second option would be to prepare a message on what I really felt God wanted me to, but that would mean I would have to do some studying. Honestly I was in a state of really being overwhelmed by everything but I knew god wanted me to take the latter option so I did. 

So I went to my book shelf and got all my books out that pertained to the topic I would be speaking on which is Paul’s Epsitle; Ephesians. At first I was just reading and studying to fulfill an agenda but more I read more I got sucked into it. It was first out of responsibility but as time passed I was truly enjoying it.

I was able discover so many interesting facts and ideas that I wouldn’t have if I didn’t take the time to look. That’s when I realized how important and beneficial it is to dig deeper and study more. Anyone can deliver a message on what they know and what they are confident about, but that leads to limitations. 

I’m glad that God challenged me today to step out of my comfort zone and be exposed to so much more about His words. He has given me the excitement to share my learnings today to my congregation tomorrow. I have been reminded once more that there is always more that God is trying to reveal, and if we are intentional we can find. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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STUDYING THE WORD

Out of nowhere God suddenly put a lot on my plate all at once. A lot to do and a lot to think about, but I am very thankful that He continues to challenge me and push towards doing more. But to be honest I was feeling a little overwhelmed today. 

While preparing my sermons for tomorrow I faced a dilemma between flesh and spirit. I had to paths in front of me I could take. The first one would be to speak on something I felt confident on, which would make the preparing much more easy and quick. Second option would be to prepare a message on what I really felt God wanted me to, but that would mean I would have to do some studying. Honestly I was in a state of really being overwhelmed by everything but I knew god wanted me to take the latter option so I did. 

So I went to my book shelf and got all my books out that pertained to the topic I would be speaking on which is Paul’s Epsitle; Ephesians. At first I was just reading and studying to fulfill an agenda but more I read more I got sucked into it. It was first out of responsibility but as time passed I was truly enjoying it.

I was able discover so many interesting facts and ideas that I wouldn’t have if I didn’t take the time to look. That’s when I realized how important and beneficial it is to dig deeper and study more. Anyone can deliver a message on what they know and what they are confident about, but that leads to limitations. 

I’m glad that God challenged me today to step out of my comfort zone and be exposed to so much more about His words. He has given me the excitement to share my learnings today to my congregation tomorrow. I have been reminded once more that there is always more that God is trying to reveal, and if we are intentional we can find. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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SOMETHING NEW 

With the semester coming to an end there is a lot of work to do. For a biblical studies major like myself that means a lot of papers. Last night at Refresh we shared prayer requests and then prayed for on another, and my prayer request was that I could find joy and enjoyment through my studies and for me to draw closer to God even through my homework.

Surprisingly enough the prayer was answered tonight. I spent all night working on two of my Old Testament papers. To be honest the first one was pretty dreadful and I just wanted to get it over with. After I completed it I was pretty unmotivated to do the next one but I got myself to just do it.

As I was writing in and reading the Bible and doing research I found myself actually enjoying it. Everything was really intriguing to the point that it didn’t feel like doing homework but rather learning more about scripture.

Through that paper I didn’t only learn more academically or mentally but I also gained new insight on the Bible. I learned something new that I could actually apply in my faith and that’s a blessing. I’ve realized again tonight that I’m not learning just to learn but more importantly to grow.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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WORDS FOR ME

It has been a long week on the struggle bus for me. I cannot believe it is just now Friday. I’ve had so much on my plate this past week and it really did take a toll on me. A lot of internal struggle trying to stay motivated and be positive. But it came to a point where I didn’t really want to go to God with my struggles but rather deal with it myself, which is obviously very unhealthy.

The overwhelming feelings kept increasing and even though I got most of what I needed to I still didn’t feel relieved from my burdens. Everything began to feel like things on my checklist and responsibilities, including going to church tonight, picking songs for our praise and prayer night next week and preparing for my sermons, which I usually truly enjoy doing.

The last thing I had to do tonight was do some final preparations for my sermon and send the verses needed to our media team. As I was going through the bible and reading over the verses I wanted for my sermon it became much more than just “picking verses” but rather a personal time of scripture reading. When least expected God used that time to reveal His words for me that I have been truly needing.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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