Monthly Archives: March 2017

USELESS WORRIES

Today was our spring lock-in for the youth group. But this years lock-in was special and different. We did it combined with the children’s ministry, this was the first time in church history we have ever done this. 

Being the new children’s pastor I was a little worried how everything would play out. I was worried about so many unnecessary things which stressed me out most of the day. There was a lot of miscommunication with the parents (since I have to deliver all information in Korean, at times things get lost in translation). This was my first challenge since taking this position, and like many would say, the first battle is always the hardest. I started to feel defeated and that I didn’t prepare enough, which caused anxiety and doubt. 

But as I was trying to calm my heart before going to church God kept reminding me of the same thing over and over again. “There’s nothing to worry about”. Once the lock-in started it was obvious He was right, there was absolutely nothing to worry about. 

Everything went a million times better than expected. All the kids had a great time with the youth group and I was able to witness breakthrough. I saw the children stepping out of their comfort zone and really drawing closer to God. God truly blew me away and reminded me how worthless worrying is. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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IF I AM WRONG

One of the things that I’ve loved about my school since day one is how we start most of our classes with prayer. A prayer from either a student or a professor. I’m a strong believer in corporate prayer and how ones prayer can represent the heart of the whole. 

Out of all my professors there’s one in particular that really moves my heart with his prayers. The reason I enjoy his prayers is because they are so real and raw. He is honest and doesn’t add anything to make it sound good, he simply speaks to God. 

Before class started today he shared how the topic in which he will be presenting to us was one that’s controversial and something that a lot of people have different views on. Then in his prayer before the lecture he said some words that really struck a chord in me. He said “Father if I am wrong, forgive me”. 

This simple sentence revealed a lot to me. Those words displayed his honest and true heart, his vulnerability as well as humbleness. You don’t see a lot of professors come before the class and say something like this, but his vulnerability moved me. 

But what really was convicting was that he wasn’t asking for forgiveness from the students but instead asking God. The reason this stuck out to me was because I realized that for the longest time whenever I’m preaching or leading a group that I have a fear of saying something wrong and a fear of how the audience will receive it. But my professor cares more about how God felt. He was more concerned on doing wrong towards God instead of his students. 

It’s one thing to be vulnerable before people but I think it’s something totally different to be vulnerable before God. That’s what God has taught me today. To be vulnerable before the Father with a honest and humble heart. To care about what He thinks not others. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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FLIP FLOP

Something I have been realizing more and more this year is how my life is really split between school life and church life. I have my community at school and separate community at church, but it’s to a point where I feel like at times I’m living two lives. But tonight God gave me the opportunity to bring those two spectrums into one picture. 

Two of my brothers from school joined us at Refresh tonight for Bible study. They came on Sunday to hear me preach and they enjoyed the community and atmosphere so they decided to come out to Refresh. It was so nice being able to interact with these brothers outside a school setting and grow together spiritually. I loved how they were able to experience a side of me they don’t see at school. 

But it got even better. After Refresh one of my dear sisters in Christ and member of Refresh wanted to check out my schools worship service that happens every Wednesday night. So she tagged along with me to go. She was one of the first friends I was able to bring to CCU. It was a blessing to have someone from church experience worship with me at school and outside of our comfort zone. 

It was awesome seeing my two worlds come together tonight. I’m truly thankful that God has given me the opportunities to have two diverse and different communities but I’m also thankful He has allowed for those two communities to blend together. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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STEAM ROOM REVELATIONS

After a few weeks of not going to the gym due to a little injury and some setback I decided to get back to it this week. It’s been nice having that personal time away from all distractions and responsibilities again. Tonight was great, after a good hard workout I hit the steam room to meditate and have a time of prayer since no one else was in there. 

As I was sitting there sweating like crazy, feeling defeated and beat I realized how weak my flesh and body is. That’s when God reminded me of many different things. 

First thing was my sermon I have this past Sunday on the story of Jesus raising Lazarus from death. Jesus gave Lazarus new life and had him partake in a resurrected life which eventually became a blessing and opportunity for all. 

Thinking about that I couldn’t help but find myself be truly thankful. As I was feeling my physical limitations I realized how thankful I am to have a new life that is greater than my life here on earth, a life that is reliant on my flesh. 

Second, I thought about Jesus spending 40 days in the desert. I can’t even imagine how difficult and challenging it must have been for Him being in the charging conditions and facing temptation head on. But through what He has overcome in those 40 days we are able to know who Jesus truly is, fully human and fully divine. 

Moments like these I am reminded how in any circumstance, even in a steam room, God can speak to me and teach me. I love how just being aware and open allows encounters with the Spirit and learning opportunities. 

I saw God today. 

Did you? 

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LITTLE DISCIPLES

What a day it has been. Something I’ve realized about this semester is that it’s truly one of a kind. There are weeks where I have nothing that’s due and then a week where I’m getting beat up. This week is the latter. 

I decided to skip my class today so I can work on a paper and kid you not I literally spent all day working on this assignment. It was exhausting and took a toll on me but at the same I was able to learn a lot. 

Something about me is that I cannot do homework at home. So instead I go coffee shop hopping to do my work. There’s two reasons I do that. One, I focus better. Two, you never know what you can witness being out in coffeeshops. For ones who know that’s how this blog started, by what I witnessed at a Starbucks. 

Today was no different. I was at a local cafe working on my paper when I saw God in a truly beautiful way. There wasn’t many people there when I got there which was nice. I was able to work in peace with minimal distractions. 

Then of course the door opened and in came 4 young little girls that were probably in like 6th grade and a woman. They sat a couple tables away from me. They were a little loud so I couldn’t help but hear what they were talking about. That’s when I saw God. 

The little girls were gathered preparing a devotional. They were reading verses out of Matthew on the story of Peter walking on water. They were brainstorming how to present this devotional to whatever group they were involved with. 

I couldn’t help but smile to see these little disciplers coming together in preparation to serve the Kingdom. Moments like these I am reminded that there is no age limit in being servants of the Lord. It’s truly inspiring and encouraging to witness children so passionate and servant hearted. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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LIFE AND DEATH

Today marks 20 years since my grandma passed away. I was only 3 and a half when she passed but I still do have slight memories of her. But the sad thing is as I get older the memories start to disappear. 

Every year for both my grandma and grandpas memorial days we get together as a family, eat foods they enjoyed and have a little family worship service. Since I’ve started ministry I’ve had the privilege to lead those services. Today hit me in a very unique and particular way. 

My cousin is now pregnant and she is the first one out of the Kang family. As it was a day remembering my grandmas death but also witnessing new life my heart was moved in a special way. Life and death are both things in which God moves through and in each a message of God can be found. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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FAM

It’s been my third week now since I’ve decided to have saturdays be my day of sabbath. Today it hit me why God really wanted me to make a time for sabbath and the purpose behind it. 

I made sure my schedule was free from any work related responsibilities and decided to spend all day with my family. And that’s what I did, spend every moment with my beloved family. 

The majority of my afternoon was spent at my dad’s shoe repair shop with my mom and sister. What I’ve realized is that for that last few years I always just stop by the shop in passing, always having somewhere else to go, and never really spent time with my dad at work. When I was younger I used to spend countless hours walking behind him watching everything he would do while asking a million questions. I was able to do that again today, it brought back so many memories just being able to be in my dads presence watching him work. I was able to help out here and there but most importantly we talked a lot throughout the day. 

After work we went out to dinner with my aunt and uncle and afterwards walked around IKEA. Simple things like that brought a smile to my face and filled me with peace. 

The biggest thing I got out of today was having a thankful heart. Actually spending intentional time with my family  I couldn’t help but be thankful for the most loving people God has placed in my life. All day being in the presence of love all around I was reminded of how thankful I must be for the simple things in life. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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VULNERABLE CONVERSATIONS

Every Friday morning I help lead and mentor a small group for their introduction to public theology class. We go over what they read in the week and try to add to the conversation and invoke deeper thoughts and perspectives. I really do enjoy this because I’m able to walk with a group that’s moving through topics that have really impacted me when I was in their shoes. 

Today’s topic was sins against humanity. How other humans inflict pain or sin against others. Today was a little different than other times because we combined with another group. I’m thankful we were able to do that because it gave us a wider range of perspectives and stances on certain issues. 

The biggest issue that we focused on was social injustice that’s happening towards different people groups. How we view these things and how we are supposed to respond as disciples of Christ. This time was really fruitful and challenging at the same time. 

It was truly encouraging and eye opening to hear the vulnerable stories of some of our members and how these issues have effected them. By others being vulnerable it encouraged me to do the same and I shared things I haven’t ever shared in a group setting before. 

Moments like these God reminds me how powerful vulnerability truly is. By one persons vulnerability another persons hardened heart can be softened. Closed eyes can be opened. New thoughts and motivations can ignite. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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WINDING DOWN

It’s been a good day. Nothing out of the ordinary or too exciting, but able to find beauty in that. Enjoying a nice chill day, no stress and quite peaceful which is pretty rare for me lol. But days like these God is teaching me to lay my worries down and embrace every moment with a smile. 

After a long day of classes I was able to come home to an amazing dinner cooked by my mom. Simple things like a delicious dinner is what I’m really trying to be intentionally thankful for and not take for granted. 

After dinner and filling my tummy the food coma hit and I was getting extremely sleepy and was feeling the laziness. I told myself I would shower but ended up laying down for 30+ minutes doing nothing. That’s when I felt the urge to watch some YouTube videos of one of my favorite worship bands; United Pursuit. 

As I was laying there in a state of peace and singing along I couldn’t help but smile. What a nice way to end a day. Singing to the Lord with a warm heart filled with joy. I cherish these simple and needed moments God provides.

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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WATERSHED 

One thing I’m guilty of and have been for years now is not being ecofriendly or ecologically aware. I don’t know why but it’s something I haven’t ever really put too much thought into or had passion for.  I believe in global warming and climate change but honestly didn’t really think it affected me. 

But my mind has been wrecked recently through my ecological theology class. I have been learning about things I’ve never considered that have seriously altered my understanding and perspective on the current eco-crisis and the importance of being aware. 

I never though that all these ecological initiatives had anything to do with my faith but more I learn I’m realizing it has everything to do with my faith. At the end of the day earth is a creation by the Creator Himself and the reality is human hands and desires are destroying what God has blessed us with. The sad and scary truth is that Creation is being destroyed as we speak and this has been occurring for countless years. 

We had to do a reading last night to prepare for class discussion today and it was based on watershed discipleship. This is a term that’s brand new to me, honestly I had no idea what a watershed was. To simply put we identify geographical locations through man made grids, borders and titles. For example calling a place a city. But what this does is ignore what that kind was originally. The truth is that every location is built around some body of water, whether that be a creek, lake, river, ocean etc. and each location has its own diverse habitat based on the water it’s around. That water is what gives that location life. That’s a watershed. And the beautiful thing is that watersheds were created by God and not by mankind. 

To start off class our professer took us to a hill that’s on campus that overlooks the city of Cincinnati. She had us meditate and look upon our home with a new perspective. As I sat there and looked I couldn’t help but gaze upon the Ohio river flowing next to a city of concrete buildings. What convicted me was knowing that all those buildings have taken dominion over God’s creation. I couldn’t stop imagining what Cincinnati looked like before it was Cincinnati, when it was truly a watershed, a lush valley next to a flowing river in the midst of rolling hills. When it looked more like God’s creation instead of human creation. 

I saw God today.

Did you? 

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