Monthly Archives: February 2017

HEARTSONG 

A few months back my social media was being lit up by my Korean Christian friends of this African American guy singing Korean worship songs on the streets of Korea. That first video I watched really moved me so I searched him up. His name is Joseph Butso and he is actually from Ohio and went to OSU. He has a calling to travel throughout the streets of Korea using his God given talent of singing to spread the gospel. I’ve been following him ever since that first video. 

I came across a recent one a couple weeks ago but didn’t wasn’t able to watch it at that moment. Today I was waiting in my car going through Facebook as my sister and aunt ran into the store and that’s when I came across the video again. I watched it and in that moment I had goosebumps that I haven’t felt in a long time. I rewatched it multiple times and sang along, and those words became my worship. 

Joseph Butso truly inspires me. He is a true missionary in my eyes. Doing what He loves, singing, with the talents god has given Him, ina foreign land to share the love of Christ. His passion and his heart is truly worship. 

This song I listened today really struck a chord in my heart. The lyrics are based upon going through the wilderness and how in the wilderness and through difficult times God is good and He is there. To lay oneself down in humbleness and allow Jesus to be number one in all circumstances.  One of the last lyrics states: 나를 통해 주님만 드러나시기를 which in English translates “through me may only Jesus be revealed”. I hope that these words can be my confession and what I pursue, for Jesus to be revealed through me and only Him, not myself. 

I saw God today. 

Did you? 

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A MONTH LATER

Last month in January I went on a candicidacy retreat which was my first step in my ordination process. During the retreat I was put in a small group assigned with two mentors that would walk with me through the process and lead me to what I need to do. After the retreat we are supposed to meet altogether a few times throughout the first half of the year. Today was our first meeting and it was phenomenal. 

At the retreat during my last night there God led me into a personal time of intercession where He challenged me to intentionally pray for each member of my group. That’s when I was able to rediscover my spiritual gift of prophecy and use it. I wrote down the words given to me by God for each individual and gave it to them. 

There was one guy in my group that God really broke my heart for and spoke to me about. The words I received for Him I knew were truly from God and I had no doubt in them at all. Today after seeing him for the first time since, he opened up a folder and showed me the paper I wrote the words on. He told me he looks at it every night and continues to pray. He also said he had some crazy news to share with us. 

A lot has happened throughout the past month and what was truly insane was that the words I received for him came to be true. The prayers we prayed over him were answered and monumental things have happened in his life since. 

My mind was absolutely blown away. This gave me confirmation that the words God give me are true and I received confirmation once more in my spiritual gift. Also I was able to witness firsthand the power of prayer and realize that God really does answer prayers. God is so good and He is alive! 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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UNEXPECTED DISCERNMENT

My current plan as of now (which is subject to change) is to finish my degree and graduate this winter. If I finish in the winter I am planning on not going to seminary until the fall of next year, therefore I will have more than half a year off. The reason I want to do this is so I can use that free time to do something meaningful before I start a new chapter in my life. 

For almost two years now since I have made this plan I have been thinking a lot about what I should do during that time. At first I had thoughts about going back to Hawaii to do another discipleship training school or staff one for YWAM. Then I was pretty serious about doing missions somewhere overseas or doing missions in the states or somewhere that speaks English so I can serve to my fullest potential. 

But to be honest I still don’t know and I’m still trying to be open minded and prayerful hoping that God will reveal what He desires for me. For about a month now I thought I had the answer but some things are pointing towards it maybe not being the right choice. Especially this week I have been in more thought and really trying to not be narrow minded and not have my own agenda so God can reveal. 

Then today in class, unexpectedly God spoke to me. During a lecture out of nowhere God gave me another idea that I would have never thought of. It’s obviously not my final choice but it’s something God has challenged me to look further into and pray about. 

It’s funny how God uses the most unexpected circumstances to answer prayers and provide discernment. Moments like these I’m reminded that I must always allow God to speak to me and not only think for myself. God really does want to help in the decisions we make and give us better ideas and visions if we allow Him to. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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UNORTHODOX BIBLE STUDY

The reality about standard ways of Bible study is that it is directed towards only certain types of personalities to be effective. The ones who are able to word their thoughts and willing to speak up. But not everyone fits under that personality. For individuals who are more artistic, poetic or hands on the orthodox way of Bible study can be less effective. 

So for Refresh tonight I wanted to try a different way of Bible study. Our theme for this month is “Church” and we have been going through Ephesians to view what the church is to look like. So instead of doing a normal question and answer type of study we did something more creative and hands on that was an unorthodox way of studying the Bible and doing reflection. 

We split up into two groups and drew our personal understanding of a church. One of the groups drew an actual church on top of a hill and labeled each element of the church. For example the foundation was Jesus, the air inside was the Holy Spirit and the hill referred to the verse that the church is to be the light on top of a hill. 

Our group went a more abstract route. We drew the church as a garden. God was the sun, Jesus the fertilizer in the soil, the Holy Spirit water from a sprinkler and us as flowers that grow due to these 3 things. We drew a bee to symbolize pastors and leaders who help the flowers grow and the air/oxygen as love. Apples hanging from the trees symbolized worship which is produced by the garden (church). 

It was extremely powerful tapping into the creative side of my brain and especially hearing the creative interpretations of people from the group. Through this experience I was able to see sides of my members that I have never seen before. This was an apportioning for us to look at God and creation in a very creative and intentional way. God has revealed that there are so many ways to think about Him, worship Him and study Him. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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MY VALENTINE(S)

Valentine’s Day for my family has always been a special day. It’s a day to spend time with the family. Recent years I have really grown to appreciate that. We focus on eachother and blessing one another. So I’m actually blessed with having my mom, sister and dad as valentines rather than only having one 🙂 

To start off the day my sister and I went to my dads shop to have lunch with our parents. After lunch I went to school and when I returned my sister and I decided to cook dinner for the family. We usually go out but since my mom has had a bad cold I thought it would be a good idea to cook. Last night my sister and I went grocery shopping to get everything we need to make the meal. 

I made steak, asparagus and portabello mushrooms and my sisters made chicken alfredo pasta with angel hair which is my dad’s favorite. To be honest I think it was the first time actually cooking with my sister since she isn’t the fondest of cooking. That in itself was a great time, having the opportunity to do something like this with her. 

Everything turned out way better than expected. It was awesome having the ability to bless our parents with food we cooked ourselves instead of just buying. To see the smile on their faces was priceless. 


I’m thankful that we were able to spend another Valentine’s Day as a family. Sharing love with the ones who I love the most. The reality is I will most likely no longer be at home next Valentine’s Day so having the opportunity to do something like this today meant a lot to me personally. Today was just another reminder how thankful I am blessed to have the family I do. I can’t thank god enough for giving me the best parents and a wonderful sister. 

I saw God today.

Did you?

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A FEW VERSES

For my Corinthians class today our professor handed out an assignment to do in class with a partner. We were to do exegesis of a few verses in Corinthians to dig deeper into what Paul was writing about. We had an hour to do it before discussing in class so at first my partner and I thought we could run through it and finish in about 30 mins and spend the rest of the time playing games lol. In reality we weren’t even able to complete it in the hour. 

The reason was because it was actually really interesting. We thought it would just be an assignment but rather it really was a lesson. In that hour of analyzing only a few verses God revealed so much to me personally. It was extremely applicable and it felt like God really intended this time for me. Also it was great to hear how my friend interpreted the verses and see his point view as well. 

What I thought would be an easy assignment, was actually a time of much reflection and thought. Some of the things we discussed were things I really needed to hear. Through an assignment god delivered affirmation and conviction. Moments like these I am so thankful to have the opportunity to study the Bible academically which actually feeds into my heart spiritually and personally. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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GOOD EXHAUSTION 

Starting last week God opened a door of opportunity I would have never expected. He has called me to be our children’s ministry pastor and I answered. I never thought I would or could lead two ministries at once but God is making it happen and I’m excited. I know it’s not going to be easy whatsoever but I also know this is what God desires and I trust in Him fully. 

Today was a full day to say the least. Gave the message for our first service, then gave the message for children’s service and led them in some activities before Bible study and to finish off the day gave the message for third service followed by a leadership meeting. Also running off of about an hour of sleep from last night. Whenever I have new serving opportunities for a while I can’t sleep the night before because I’m filled with excitement. I didn’t feel the exhaustion until the end of my day but then it hit me like a train. 

On my drive home I looked back at my day and all that was done and couldn’t help but be extremely thankful and humbled. All these things are only possible through God. There is no way I can do all this with my own strength and I experienced His guiding hand upon me throughout the day. By the time I got home I was truly exhausted but filled with joy at the same time. I absolutely love serving as much as I can and I’m glad God is allowing me to do so. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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CONVERSATIONS WITH DAD

My mom has caught the cold pretty bad today, so for dinner my dad, sister and I went out without her. After getting back home we were all just hanging out in the living toom talking and having a good time. That’s when randomly my dad and I started to have conversation on theology, the Bible and other related things. 

My dad and I are super close and we talk a lot and a lot of the the times our conversations are about faith but what I’ve realized is it’s always me talking and I haven’t had much opportunity to hear my dad’s understandings and his view on things. So for about an hour we sat there discussing various topics and getting really deep. My favorite part about the conversation was hearing about bible stories he really liked and his reasons why. It was such a blessing to get to know in more depth how my dad viewed things and how much the Bible meant to him. 

I am so thankful and blessed to have a dad like mine who I can sit with and talk about my faith openly and be vulnerable. He has always been someone who I truly looked up to in many aspects of life and especially his faith. I love how we can challenge eachother now and honestly grow together. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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SURPRISED BY JOY

It’s just been one of the days where the weather was cold and I wasn’t feeling very vibrant either. Just one of those days where you feel tired and lazy and don’t want to do anything. I think all the busyness of this week caught up to me today. 

After class I ate lunch with my family and then went home to take it easy. I had some things I needed to do but really wasn’t in the mood so I decided to just lay in bed and rest. But it was restless rest, I laid there but I didn’t feel much at peace since I still needed to get some things done. 

Then I ended up falling asleep and when I woke up it was time to go to church. To be honest I contemplated about not going tonight but I knew I should. I got there a little early so I decided to take some time and clean up my office. I told one of our youth girls to shoot me a text when they start service. 

She texted me that they were about to start so I wrapped up what I was doing and went to the room. When I opened the door I was greeted with an empty room, no people and just music playing. Extremely confused I stepped out and looked around the church and texted her again asking where they were and she said they were there. I went back and still no one was there. 

Then I peeped around a wall and the whole youth group jumped out and scared the living daylights out of me. I was extremely surprised at first but then I ended up dying in laughter. In that moment I was filled with this freeing joy. Simply laughing with nothing else on my mind. After a gloomy day it was great spending time with my brothers and sisters who can put a smile on my face and take my worries away. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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ONE

After speaking at our school chapel service last night my experience at school today was much different than usual. I only have a selected few I talk to on campus and besides them I just walk around passing people by like strangers. But the moment I stepped onto campus today I had people I’ve never met before come up to me call my name and say hi, talk to me about my message last night and even had random people smile and wave. 

For the first time I truly felt a part of student life and of this community. With it being my last year here I am so thankful that my college experience is changing and becoming really enjoyable. This would have never happened if God didn’t open the door for me to speak at the service last night. I feel like He killed two birds with one stone by giving me that opportunity. Allowing His message to be delivered and for me to open new doors. 

These past couple months God truly has been folding me into the school, giving me opportunities and allowing me to form more relationships. But last night really was the cherry on top. Now I really do feel as one with everyone else and I am beyond thankful. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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