Monthly Archives: February 2017

JOYFUL NOSTALGIA

It’s only Tuesday and I have been slammed this week with loads of homework to do. It’s been a tad overwhelming but I’m getting through everything pretty well. Even though I try to stay positive stress does seep in to an extent. 

As I was driving to the chiropractor after class I had the radio playing instead of my usually Spotify. I haven’t really updated my playlists for my worship songs and since I listen to them every day I kind of wanted a break. But as I was driving listening to the radio God convicted me of getting back to worship. I didn’t know what to listen to and that is when I remembered seeing a post on Facebook from a worship leader Rick Pino stating he released a new album, so I turned that on. 

The first song that came on was “Lift up your hands” which was actually a song that I saw him perform live when I was at DIscipleship training school in Hawaii. I haven’t heard the song since, which has been 4 years now. The moment I listened to it I was filled with joy. It was extremely nostalgic. 

I could remember being in the Ohana courtyard with about a thousand other brothers and sisters worshipping to this song. Goin back to that memory brought back many emotions, one being true joy and happiness. I could remember that exact moment. Standing in the congregation shoulder to shoulder with my friends, with shorts and a tank top and no shoes, jumping up and down with my hands up praising God. 

I’m glad God brought me back to that time of my life through this song today. I was reminded of a season of my life where I felt free as can be and joyful beyond measure. But what God reminded today was that I can have that heart of worship and be that way here and now. It doesn’t have to just be a past season but I can make it be a current season as well. God has convicted me to be joyful, passionate and free. To not be constrained by my current stresses but rather be free in Him. 

I saw God today. 

Did you? 

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OPEN BIBLE 

Yesterday was such a busy Sunday I felt like a zombie once I got home which caused me to not be able to do some homework I planned doing. I went to bed early last night and pushed my work to today. Surprising enough I still felt like a zombie today lol but the work had to get done. After class I worked on my paper from 4-7 then ate dinner then went back working from 8:30-10:30 and finished! 

Writing the paper was obviously exhausting but it was actually more enjoyable than I expected. Yeah it took a lot of time but I really did try to make the best of it. The paper was on a topic I never really studied; sexuality in the New Testament, so I was able to learn loss of new information. 

As I was finishing up my paper at Starbucks after dinner I saw something that put a huge smile on my face. Open Bibles. At two separate tables in Starbucks were people with their Bibles. One man looked like maybe he was a pastor doing some sermon preparation and at another table was a group of 3 women that seemed to be having a small Bible study. It was ironic because this specific Starbucks was the one where I first get convicted to start this blog. 

For some reason when I see people digging into the Word in public it fills me with joy. Joy to see my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ whom I don’t even know, growing in that moment. Being able to witness people take part in hearing what God is revealing to them, seeing individuals’ desire and intentionality really brings me joy. Seeing a stranger reading the Word to me is seeing someone interacting with God in that very moment. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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END & BEGINNING 

October 11, 2015 was the beginning of our 1:30 Refresh Sunday Service. After many seasons of difficulties having my ministry members come to church on Sundays God put it on my heart and opened the doors to make our own service. For over a year it has been absolutely amazing personally as well as for our ministry. Through it God gave me the opportunity to preach every Sunday to my congregation and with that service we experienced a lot of spiritual growth for our members and it was also an avenue to bring in new members. 

I am a believer that there is a time and place for all things. This past year our 1:30 service is what we needed and what God wanted for us but it has come to be the time where this door is closing and God is opening a new door and setting forth a new challenge. He is pushing us to a new chapter and all we can do is obey and trust. 

Today, February 26, 2017 was our last 1:30 service and starting next Sunday we will be combining with our 9:45 English Ministry service. It was a very bittersweet day to see something come to an end but also know that a new endeavor is ahead. A couple months ago God put in on my heart and the heart of other leaders that it is time to look upon our church as a whole and not just our ministry. God is calling us to truly take part in the body of the church and integrate within the bigger picture and to do so we decided to unite with the other service. 


It was not an easy decision by any means but it was a decision that was needed to be made. I truly believe this is what God wants and I trust in that. I believe this is evidence that He is continusouly working within our ministry and our church. This next step will bring forth fruit and growth for many and I know God will work through this. I am excited to see what more God has in store and how He will have His will revealed. 

I saw God today.

Did you?

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ASSESMENT & EVALUATION

One of the things I have to do for my ordination process is meet with a psychologist. During my candidacy retreat in January I had to take a psychology assement that was over 3 hours long and today I went to meet with a psychologist to go over my assesment as well as have some evaluation done. 

To be honest I went in with no thoughts or expectations at all. I assumed we would just go over my assesment and it would be very logistical but I was very wrong. Maybe it’s because it was my first time going to a psychologist but it was extremely different than what I expected. 

We talked for about 2 hours and during that time he asked me about a million questions regarding all aspects of my life. He went really deep and I ended up sharing things I haven’t shared with almost anyone before. At first it was a tad nerve racking being so vulnerable but later on it was really refreshing and a time of healing for me to get to talk to someone about so many things about my life. 

After sharing he went over the assement I took last month and he revealed a lot about myself. I was a little shocked about some of the things he brought to light. I’ve realized there were some things ongoing in my life that I chose to ignore that have actually been taking a toll on me. 

This experience was really eye opening and very enjoyable. I think God used this time to help me get more in touch with my self, with my mind, heart and soul. I was able to discover what I need to work on and the things that I have allowed to negatively effect my life. I’m thankful for this because now I know where I need growth and where I need healing. Through this God has placed new prayer points on my heart that I need to press towards. 

I saw God today.

Did you?

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SLEEPOVER 

It’s funny how plans change and unexpected plans happen instead. I was supposed to hangout with one of my friends right after church tonight but one of my youth boys who is practically my little brother to me needed a ride. So I decided to give him a ride home before meeting up with my friend and as soon as we were about to leave church my friend texted me saying he can’t meet up any more, therefore I decided to take advantage of the time I had to spend with my little brother. 

It was almost 11 by this time and he didn’t eat dinner so we went to get something to eat before dropping him off. The thing is he lives about 30 minutes from me but his mom has a restaurant less than 5 minutes from my house and she asked if he could just sleep over at my place so I don’t have to drive him home and I can just take him to the restaurant tomorrow. That’s how this unexpected sleep over occurred. 

I’m really thankful for spontaneous moments like these. The reality is I’m extremely busy and he is busy being in high school and heavily involved with athletics so we don’t have much time to spend with eachother anymore. But with it being my last year here in Cincinnati I really want to take advantage of every moment I can have with the people I love and grew up with. 

Moments like these I’m so thankful to have these relationships with brothers and sisters in Christ of all ages that I’ve known for 10+ years. Every moment together is to be cherished. I’m thankful God has placed these relationships in my life and has placed so many brothers and sisters I consider truly family. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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THE DREAM OF SHARING THE GOSPEL

I was flipping through Facebook when I saw someone share a video of a very famous Korean rapper giving an award speech. I personally really like him for many reasons so I gave it a watch. I thought it was just going to be a common speech but what he did blew my mind. 

So his name is Bewhy and he got famous off of a Korean rap audition show last year by winning the whole thing. The reason so many people including myself like him is because he is extremely unorthodox compared to all other famous rappers in Korea. The reason being is because he doesn’t talk about all the typical things rappers talk about, rather his lyrics are driven by his faith. From what I know he is one of the only Korean rappers that are outspoken about his Christianity and where his lyrics are majority about his walk in faith, the gospel or his testimony. 

Korea is a nation driven by pop culture and is extremely secular. So to have someone like him make it as big as he has without being secular but focusing on God is mind blowing and amazing to me. He uses his gift and the platform given to be a messenger of the gospel and be a missionary. 

During his award speech he said he has always had a dream since he began his career in music and he wanted to fulfill that dream during the speech. His dream was to share verses from John 1. He spoke the verses and told the crowd that he wanted to share to everyone the truth that he lives by. 

This is something that is not seen or heard of within Korean pop culture. Korean media is really sensitive about being censored when it comes to religion but he didn’t care and was courageous enough to use this stage to fulfill his dream in sharing the gospel. I was truly inspired by his actions and his heart. It’s crazy that his dream after achieving fame was to read scripture and share the gospel on live television. Seeing someone like him step forward and be unashamed of who he was in Christ really touched my heart. He has encouraged me to have that same dream, to have the desire to share the gospel wherever I am no matter what circumstance and be a messenger of Christ. He has represented Romans 1:16 and I aspire to do the same. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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DAD AND ME

About two weeks ago my mom caught a really bad cold and she just started getting better this week, but she passed the sick baton to my dad and surprise he passed it onto me. Starting yesterday the runny nose turned on, sneezing and headaches but nothing too bad so I took some NyQuil and went to bed but I woke up feeling the groggiest I’ve been in a long time. 

During my first class of the day my head was aching really bad and I was congested but still didn’t feel too bad. Thankfully my second class got cancelled, so I came home early but I wasn’t able to rest at all because I needed to run errands. When my dad got home from work I took him to get some blood work done which took over an hour and then went to the BMV to get new plates for my car which took over an hour as well. 

Both places took way longer than expected and I first started getting really impatient and frustrated. Sitting in those waiting rooms was when my throat started to hurt and the sickness started to take over. First insitinct I just wanted to be upset and complain but something came upon me. Even though I started to feel like crap I wanted to take advantage of the one on one time with my dad. 

Since we spent most of the time just sitting there waiting we had nothing to do but talk. That’s when I realized how thankful and blessed I was to have times like these with my dad. There’s no one else that I can talk to so openly about my thoughts and what I’m going through in life. Like today I was able to talk to him about countless things that I’ve been thinking about and he is always there to give me guidance and advice. He always help me get my thoughts together and never lose sight on the important things. God has blessed me with the greatest role model and dad I could ever ask for. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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SUPPORTED

I can’t believe that if everything goes by plan I will be done with college at the end of this year. Time is absolutely flying by and it blows my mind. I need to start planning ahead and figuring out my next steps, and that’s what I have been starting to do. 

My plan ever since I knew I would be going to seminary was to graduate undergrad in the winter so I would have time off for myself until seminary in the fall, so the total of about 9 months. The reason I wanted to do this was so I could have a personal time for me and God before I start the next big chapter of my life. I haven’t made a clear decision on what exactly I would be doing and that is what I’ve been praying about a lot recently. 

I think God has delivered me His answer on what to do during that time. I still need to do discernment but I’m almost for certain what He has put on my heart is His answer to my prayers. It definitely isn’t what I expected but being a surprise I can tell it’s from God and not myself. 

What I think God wants me to do is a pretty big adventure and step. I have been contemplating whether to tell my family or not but tonight I decided to so they can pray with me and help me in discernment. It was perfect timing as we went out for dinner. 

To be honest I was a little nervous and anxious on how they were going to react but of course they were absolutely supportive. I’m beyond thankful to have a support system like my family that is always behind me and encouraging me in my walk in life and especially in faith. I’m glad God has given me such an amazing family to have by my side and help me grow daily. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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CHECK UP

What a beautiful day it was. My only class of the day got cancelled, it was almost 70 degrees, checked out a new coffee shop, got some homework done, went to the chiropractor, first time back to the gym since my accident and cooked delicious burgers for the fam for dinner. Couldn’t have been a better Monday in my opinion. 

There were two incidents that made my day even brighter. The first was when I went to the chiropractor. I was laying down getting my adjustment when my chiropractor asked me how I was doing, how ministry has been and how church yesterday was. For some they may think it’s their job to make small talk like that to avoid awkwardness but I don’t. It’s truly a blessing to have people like that in my life who really does care about how I’m doing and is intentional in checking up. 

After the chiropractor I went to grab a cup of coffee, take advantage of the weather and do some homework outside. It was so peaceful soaking in the sun, feeling the breeze, getting some work done over a nice cold iced dopio espresso. As I was enjoying the moment my phone buzzed and it was a brother of mine from Atlanta. 

He randomly texted me asking me if I had any prayer requests and how he could pray for me this week. This isn’t the first time he’s done this but every time I truly feel blessed. Blessed to have someone reach out, thinking about me and praying for me. But what I realized was I haven’t really thought about many personal prayer requests recently, so it was really nice getting to reflect on my life to see what areas I need prayer for. So thankful to have a friend like him praying for me miles away. 

The reality is that people in ministry ask how others are doing but don’t really get asked how they are doing, pray for others but don’t have many opportunities to receive prayer. Therefore to have people in my life that reach out and check up on me really is special. I’m always reminded I have brothers and sisters near and far walking along side of me. Beyond thankful for all these people God has placed in my life. 

I saw God today. 

Did you? 

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YOU ARE A CREATION OF GOD

Today was my second official Sunday as our children’s ministry pastor and it was amazing. I beyond glad and thankful that I took this opportunity to be a part of this awesome ministry and community. There truly is something special about sharing God’s words with children and having the blessed privilege to be used a vessel to plant seeds in the lives of my younger brothers and sisters. 

Last week and this week we are going through the creation story in Genesis 1. Last week the focus was on days 1-5 and seeing what God created in this world and today we looked at the 6th day where God created man. The emphasis was on how we are made in the image of God and how God is the one who created all of us. I tied it in with Psalm 139. 

I brought out a white board and had the kids go around and share what they thought were characteristics of God. I ended up writing countless number of words that described and portrayed who God was to our children. Then I turned the tables around and did something a little different. 

Since we are all made in the image of God and hold characteristics of Him within us, I put a students name on the board and had the other children describe their friend. It turned out way better than I imagined. Everyone was eager to encourage their fellow brothers and sisters and pour out their love and truths upon them. It truly was a sight to see and I know that God was moving within everyone’s hearts today. 

In a society where identity issues are real and happen at a young age, especially for Asian Americans living in predominantly white suburbs, it was beautiful to see everyone receive affirmation on who they were as a child of God. I loved how each friend was able to see their fellow friend as a creation of God and identity strengths amongst every individual. My hope and prayer is that each child will never forget who they are and who they have been created in and by. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

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