Monthly Archives: November 2016

REFERENCES

Tomorrow is the deadline for all of the documents and information I need to complete to begin my first step in my ordination process. With doing all that plus all my school work I have had a lot on my plate. I realized that one of my final steps I needed to do by tonight was get 4 references from non-family people that are close to me.

It was really last minute but I needed to reach out. I felt a little doubtful at first because it was already mid afternoon and I haven’t contacted anyone. But I knew I needed to do it so I called both my mentor pastors and reached out to my senior pastor and one of my professors.

By midnight I had all four references turned in. Through this experience today I realized how thankful I am to have such supportive and loving people in my life that I can rely on. All these individuals are extremely busy people but they all went out of their way to help me in my journey.

I was reminded once more today how blessed I am to have people in my life that God has placed to help me further my calling and faith. I am thankful to know I am not alone and always have brothers and sisters in Christ by my side cheering me on.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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WHY? 

I don’t know why but I thought there was a lot of time before this semester but I was wrong. It hit me today that classes are done in two weeks. That means it’s crunch time and I have a lot I need to do in these two weeks. But on top of school work I have a handful of things I need to get done by Thursday for my ordination process that I’ve been procrastinating on.

I was feeling a little overwhelmed today thinking about all the things I need to get done. I decided that today I will work on my ordination stuff and tomorrow I will begin on school work. As I was filling out a document I had to answer some simple questions but some of them really had me thinking.

Questions like: why are you pursuing ministry? What are experiences that have impacted your faith? What are your strengths and weaknesses? What are your passions? Who has impacted you in your life?

As I was answering these questions I was reminded of why I am doing what I’m doing. Why I’m going through school and why I’m in ministry. These questions helped me take a step back to be reminded of the reasons behind everything that I’m doing and it gave me motivation.

Sometimes we get too caught up in what we are doing to realize or remember why we are doing it. Today God reminded me to never lose or forget the purpose of what I’m doing.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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CLASSROOM WORSHIP

Something I am coming to realize more and more this semester is how thankful I am to be a student at my school; Cincinnati Christian University. There are so many privileges and opportunities to grow in faith if you take advantage. The thing about a Christian university is that God is talked about in every class, but the reality is you can become desensitized. The topic of God and faith can end up being just a homework assignment or class lecture. But it all comes down to how your heart is, and the posture of your heart, because even class can become worship.

Today for our public theology class we went through a liturgy as a class. Our professor passed around a packet with hymns, scripture and response readings. At first I just thought it would be like any other class assignment but it was much more.

We sat around in a circle and we started by singing a hymn together. This is something I’ve never done before in class so at first it felt a little awkward and humorous but deeper we got into my heart started to change. It was just a class activity but that moment was a place of worship.

We weren’t doing this just for academic purposes but rather it was an opportunity for us as a class to worship God together. We have worship opportunities at school with chapel services and such but this was different. It was an intimate time to worship together with my friends but also with my professor.

I didn’t think I would go to class this morning to encounter God and praise Him, but it happened. I am so thankful for that. I am thankful that my classroom isn’t just an academic place but also a place of worship. I am thankful that I could be a part of that with the people around me.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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GRAB A HAND

Something I’ve realized these past couple weeks is that I have been feeling extremely unmotivated in almost all aspects of life. This has led me to be in a burnt out state causing me to be lazy and slacking in my responsibilities. It’s been awhile since I have felt this way but it’s been really getting to me.

This morning I overslept and was running really late to church. While I was driving I started to feel very disappointed in myself. That’s when it really hit me that I need to get out of this funk that I am in.

After I got to church I hurried up and did all the preparations needed cutting it right on time before the service. Then I sat in the first pew like any other Sunday next to the other pastors. Minutes before I had to go up to begin the service I closed my eyes and started to prepare my heart.

All of a sudden I was startled by someone grabbing my hand. It was our youth pastor. He held my hand and began to pray for me out loud and the words he prayed was exactly what I needed. The crazy thing is I never really expressed to him what I was going through but in that perfect moment he somehow I knew I needed prayer and prayed what my heart was crying out for.

That simple random gesture was what I needed. I didn’t know how he knew but that was a sign that God knew. God heard my heart in the car ride to church just minutes before. He knew what I was desperately in need of and He moved through him to deliver.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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CHECK PLEASE 

It was a truly blessed Thanksgiving/birthday weekend. Being able to spend a few days with all my family and especially getting to hangout with my cousins from Atlanta was amazing. For me spending quality time with family is one of the greatest gifts.

Something that really hit me this Thanksgiving was how much has changed, how much we have grown. My cousin just got married in September and it was the first Thanksgiving with him and his wife as a married couple. My other cousin just got a new job down in Atlanta, and for me this is the most busiest I have been in ministry. It really hit me today that we aren’t all kids anymore.

Today was our last day with our Atlanta cousins before they headed back down, so we spent the whole day together. What really got me was when we were at breakfast with all our families and my cousin took the check and paid for us. Then for dinner my other cousin paid.

It doesn’t seem like much but it was a blessing to see how much has changed. All our lives we have received from our parents but to now see my cousins in a place where they are giving really touched my heart. Just a simple gesture like buying a meal for the family is a way to show love and a way to give back.

It’s amazing how God takes us through earlier years and seasons to learn and then puts us in a time where we can apply what we have learned. It really is a beautiful thing to take a step back and witness the growth that happens in our lives and in the lives around us. God is always preparing us and giving us opportunities to love and live like Jesus did.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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BOWL

Ever since a couple weeks ago one of my uncles kept talking about his glory days when he used to be a great bowler. The funny thing is he is the most humble man I have ever known, so to hear him bragging about something was a surprise. So we decided since our family will be in town for thanksgiving we will all go out bowling together. Today was the day.

As cousins we’ve been bowling together many times but as a whole family with the adults included today was the first, and oh boy was it a good time. I saw my mom bowl for the first time in my life and that was hilarious, she even got a strike. I was able to witness the competitive side come out of the most unexpected people. In the midst of it all what I was really grateful for was that my dad was able to hangout with us and be part of the fun even though he couldn’t bowl.


In the two hours we were at the bowling alley it was a time of pure joy. It was a time as a family where we didn’t have any distractions and the only thing we cared about was the moment. Being with eachother sharing laughs, high fives and occasional frustration. What a blessing it was to be unified in fun.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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THANKFUL 

Thanksgiving + my birthday on the same day, it’s been a good one. The only thing that has ran through my mind all day is how thankful I am. Especially thankful for my amazing family.

It was a blessing to spend the whole day with the people I love remembering what I am thankful for and at the same time being able to celebrate my birthday with them. They are the reason I am who I am today, so having the privilege to be with all of them was a true blessing.


I am beyond thankful to call my family, my family. There is nothing greater I could ask for on my birthday then to be surrounded by these people. One thing I have always been the most thankful for that still remains the same today is my family. Through them I encounter and experience the love of God in such a tangible way, I am thankful.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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THANK YOU 22

Today was my last official day being 22 years old. Usually when it becomes my birthday I don’t think too much about it and I don’t care too much but this birthday is different. I spent most of my day reflecting and thinking back to all that has happened in this past year and season of my life and I couldn’t be anymore thankful.

God has really been molding me in various aspects of my life this past season. Humbling me in ministry, making me aware of my strengths and weaknesses in my relationships with friends and family, challenging me as a student and ultimately allowing myself to climb the mountains to get closer to God.

Ages 19-21 were times of extreme “ups” in my life. Honestly I can’t think of too many battles or hardships in those years, but 22 was a time of true shaping. A time that I have been needing to come back to my roots and turn my eyes on the Father in all circumstances.

My hope in 2016 was to fall in love with God again and that is something I can confidently say I have accomplished. I have learned what it means to love God with all my heart. I have also learned that loving God is not easy but what it takes to do so.

Age 22 is a year and season of my life that I don’t think I will ever forget. I was able to be the brick of clay and allowed God to be the potter. I believe the sculpting, molding and refining God has done in my life this past year has played a huge role in shaping who I am and who I will be.

I’m thankful God has given me the opportunity today to look back at His goodness and grace that has been so evident and relentless in my life. In conclusion the only thing that remains in my heart is thankfulness. Thankfulness towards God and all the loving people Be has placed beside me in this season. I can’t wait to see what more God is going to do in and through my life. Goodbye 22 hello 23.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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WATCHLESS 

Ever since the beginning of high school there is something I have never left the house with, a watch. I first started wearing watches because I thought it was cool but throughout the years I found myself wearing a watch for specific reasons. I really value time and find beauty in time, it’s amazing to know that as the hands of my watch are moving everything in this world is in motion, including God’s hands. But on a less poetic and more realistic note I wear a watch is because I like to be punctual lol.

Today I made a huge mistake that I’ve probably only made a few times through the years, leave the house without a watch. As I was driving to meet my friend for lunch I looked down and my wrist was naked, no watch, just a tan line showing me what was missing. For me this is one of the weirdest physical feelings ever. But I didn’t have time to go back to the house and I had plans right after lunch, so I knew I had to go through the day watchless. It may not seem like a big deal but I was really bummed. Some may say atleast I have my phone but something I really hate doing is continuously looking at my phone when I’m with others.

As I was eating lunch, grabbing coffe and having great conversation with my friend it hit me. Time is not as important as I thought. In reality checking the time constantly can cause not being able to spend quality time with someone and embracing the moment. That revelation continued throughout the night.

I was invited to our youth pastor’s home for dinner with other amazing people. We spent the evening eating delicious food, watching a movie, playing games and in awesome conversation. I found myself not worrying about what time it was, rather enjoying the fun filled evening. I got to their house at 4 and left at 12:30. Time flew by.

Today God has revealed to me the importance of embracing and taking advantage of every minute and every moment that He places in front of me. Not to look ahead but rather to be present in the current. This has been a much needed lesson for a person like me who always is planning ahead. Who would have thought that by not wearing a watch such a revelation would occur. God is amazing in the ways in which He disciplines His children.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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WHEN THE LEAVES FALL

Unlike other universities I am luck to have this whole week off for Thanksgiving break. Today was my first day off and I realized how much it was needed. I wanted to take advantage and really do something for myself so I decided to go fishing. To be honest it was not a good trip in the fishing aspect. It was cold, really windy and I didn’t catch anything. But I gained something even better.

I was the only one out there on the big lake and as I stood there with my line in the water I couldn’t help but stare at the trees. The trees with barely anymore colorful leaves, preparing for the winter. That’s when God spoke to me.


Just like the trees I’m going through a time of change. A time where I’m learning to come back to my roots, my bark just like the trees. The leaves are falling, the external things that had my life vibrant for a season disappearing but through that I’m discovering myself more and more. Even though the leaves may fall the trees remain and in the same way God is using this season for me to look at myself for the way I am.

Through this new season I am learning so much about who I am and who God wants me to be. I could look upon this time in a negative way but I have chosen today to look at it as a time where God is preparing me for what is to come.

God truly gave me the peace I was searching for. A peace in my mind and heart. Confirmation that He is continuously doing His works in me and confirmation that I am exactly where I need to be. He is instilled in me an excitement for the season to come, excitement to see what new leaves and colors He will reveal through and within me.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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