Monthly Archives: September 2016

SING A NEW SONG

As I was driving home after classes today I turned on Spotify and went on discovery mode to check out some new songs. While I was shuffling through I saw a song that I have been listening to for years now covered by someone I have never heard of before. I really like cover songs of worship but usually because of the musical elements, I like to hear what changes different artists make and how they make it their own. But this song hit me in a very special way.

I remember the first time hearing/singing this song about 3 years ago while I was with YWAM in Hawaii. I remember how the lyrics, melody and simplicity of this song really struck a chord in my heart. We used to always sing this song before starting gatherings or doing evangelism etc. The reason I fell in love with this song then was because it was a song that allowed me to take a step back and be aware of the Holy Spirit’s presence in my heart and in my surroundings.

Back then it wasn’t really a popular song and I didn’t hear it around as much, but now this song is extremely popular, on the radio and led at church. I still love it but what I have realized was that it lost the value it used to have for me. I feel like I sing and listen to it now because I like the song/the music rather than the heart of it.

But today as I was driving when this version started to play something happened. In that moment, in my heart and in my car the Holy Spirit moved. What began as just a casual listen during a drive became a a true “God moment”. I was taken back 3 years ago to the first time I heard this song. My heart felt just like it did back then. These words were more than a song but a cry of my heart. In that moment God brought me to a place of pure, heartfelt worship.

Musical worship cannot be just based on the music, it’s more than the rhythm, melody or lyrics. It’s about the heart that it encourages. When I sing this song am I “feeling it” because I like the song? Or am I really giving worship to God?

I saw God today.

Did you?

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SPEAK LIFE 

Tonight was the last Wednesday mighty of this month which means it was the last night of our series. We have been focusing on scripture from Romans 12 and 1 Corinthians 12 and how we are all made different but all have a purpose and function in the unified body.

To end our series tonight we did something to really share love and positive vibes. We first took some time on our own in prayer and meditation to discern how God has made ourselves different and unique and ask God what our individual purpose is for this body. Then we went around and shared what we discovered and took time to encourage our personal self and look upon ourselves with God’s eyes.

The reason I wanted to do this was because I believe it is so important to see ourselves through God’s lens rather than look at ourselves through the false lenses of this world. Yeah it’s good to be humble and not speak highly about yourself but sometimes when we are too humble we tend to lie to ourselves and only look at our weaknesses and brokenness and forget about how beautiful we truly are as creations of God.

So we took time to first encourage ourself and speak life into our own hearts. Then we had a time to encourage one another and continue to speak words of affirmation and truth.

It was truly a powerful time to see everyone come together as one body to love one another through our words. I believe God used all of us as his mouthpieces to share and reveal the words of His heart for each individual tonight.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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BRINGING ME BACK 

It’s been a crazy weekend since Thursday to yesterday with wedding festivities and being in Atlanta. It was a great chance to get away from things here and have fun and be filled with much need joy surrounded by amazing people. But through the busyness I realized I didn’t take any time to really spend intentional time with God.

Today I was able to spend the day at home to catch up on sleep before I head back to classes and start up where I left off on ministry tomorrow. To be honest it’s been a very unproductive day, just being lazy and relaxing. After a long nap I went out to go pick up some dinner for the family and that was when God really gave me a conviction and urge to get back into His word.

This is really dangerous, but while I was driving I had this burning desire to read my bible. So I opened my bible app and starting reading from 1 Corinthians. I only read a little since I was driving and read more after I got home. But what I realized was how much scripture is needed in daily life.

Yeah it was great taking some time off from everything and being in Atlanta but I shouldn’t ever take time away from God and my faith. I’m so thankful God gave me this deep conviction this evening to realize how God is always with me and therefore I must always be with Him.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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LOVED BY MANY 

What a crazyyy long wedding weekend it’s been. Got down to Atlanta Thursday and just got back home tonight. A lot happened in those days, a lot. And now I cannot believe the wedding has happened.

On our drive up today I was way too tired to drive so my sister and dad drove the whole way. I slept pretty much the entire time. As I sat in the car I looked back on this trip, all the memories and realized what a blessing it has been to be a part of such a great time and precious moment of two people I love dearly. So thankful I had the privilege to be a groomsmen and be there for and with my cousin leading up to the big day and through it.

When I got home I opened up Facebook and Instagram and saw all of the posts from so many people. Seeing all the pictures, comments and blessings people were sharing about them put a smile on my face. That proved how much they are loved by so many but also shows how much they have loved others. But ultimately it’s a reminder how much God loves them.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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WEDDING 

After 3 days of being down here in Atlanta and helping with preperation the wedding day was finally here. At the end of the day it wa a huge success and I am so thankful I had the privilege to be a part of it. 

This wedding was the most emotional wedding for me yet. My cousin is someone who I consider to be more than a cousin but a blood brother to me. So to be able to witness him marry the love of his life was one of the biggest blessings. I am beyond happy for him. 

Today I was able to see God bring two of His creations together to be one. I witnessed love on display. I know how much they love eachother but that showed me how much more God loves them both. 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

BONDING

T-1 day until my cousin’s wedding. With only 1 day left until the big day we had a lot to do. Ran errands with the other grooms men, rehearsal, more errands, rehearsal dinner and then more things to do. It was definitely a little overwhelming but surprisingly through the chaos I was able to find joy.

While running around town and getting these done I was able to spend a lot of time with my cousins which was such a blessing. Since all of us live busy lives now a days and we live in different states, it’s difficult finding time to really spend with one another. Being in the car between places all day I was able to share many great conversations and catch up on life.

Even though there were times where I was a little stressed I am extremely thankful. I am thankful that God has given me the privilege to spend quality time with the most important people of my life that I haven’t been able to have in a while. Though tiredness was present throughout the day, there were countless moments of laughter and pure joy that were priceless. God is good and works in all things and makes His goodness known.

I saw God today.

Did you?

 

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BABY

It was our first full day down here in Atlanta. Was very busy with a lot to do but in the midst of it all had a great time with amazing people. 

One of my mentors and a true brother of mine lives down here. About two months ago him and his wife had their first baby. I stayed with them last summer during my internship here and I knew how much they truly wanted to have a child and grow their family. 

To finally see them with their baby Evelyn was a true blessing. To see an answered prayer. To see the joy in their hearts. To see God use them in new ways. 


Holding her for the first time, a lot of thoughts went through my head. The biggest one was realizing that this creation in my arms is much more than just a baby but a blessing. I cannot wait to see Evelyn grow step by step into the amazing servant of God like her parents! 

I saw God today. 

Did you?

ENJOYABLE 8 HOUR DRIVE 

From Monday to Thursday I had a total of two papers, two readings and three quizzes. With all of that going on I had an average of about 3 hours of sleep per night. I’m pretty drained. But this weekend my cousin is getting married in Atlanta so right after my last quiz our family set off on our drive and we arrived late tonight.

The moment I got into the car to begin our 8 hour drive all I could realize was how exhausted I was. My tiredness distracted me completely from feeling any excitement for going to Atlanta. My hopes were to catch up on sleep during the ride down but I wasn’t able to sleep even a minute. But it was awesome.

Due to my busy schedule the past couple weeks I haven’t been able to spend true quality time with my family and that is exactly what God allowed for me to have during the drive. It was a time of joy, a lot of laughter and great conversation. Through that I was able to find and receive the rest I was in need of.

Today while I was in the car God redefined rest for me. Rest doesn’t only mean sleep. Rest can be seen as a time of true peace, an opportunity to refuel and a moment to let every distraction go. God gave me that rest today, for 8 hours, in a car. God definitely finds ways, sometimes very unexpected and humorous ways to give us what we need.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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WHAT KEEPS ME GOING

What a crazy couple of days it has been. School work has got me slammed and today is when it really started to take a toll on me physically, mentally and even spiritually. I had a quiz this morning that I didn’t do well on and worked on a paper for a total of almost 4 hours. While I was doing my paper I started to really feel overwhelmed and exhausted to a point where honestly I didn’t even feel like praying. All I could think about was getting everything over with. I felt like I had no motivation.

Tonight we had our first Refresh house gathering at my place. But honestly since I was consumed with so many other things throughout the day I wasn’t really looking forward to it and had zero excitement. I got finished with my paper 30 minutes before it started.

Feeling exhausted and overwhelmed I had no idea what to expect. Then God hit me with a huge surprise. I was waiting for people to get here and all of a sudden the flow of cars and people were nonstop. Way more people than I could have imagined. I was able to see new faces and faces I haven’t seen in months.


We started with dinner and then had worship and prayer time. The focus for tonight was to send off our current worship leader and to welcome our new servant leadership team. Through the whole evening God lit a fire in my heart that I was truly in need of.

Then I took a step back and looked around at everyone and that’s when it hit me. I love these people, I love my ministry and there is nothing else I would rather do. This is the reason I am doing all that I’m doing. To serve my brothers and sisters in Christ but ultimately to serve God. Nights like tonight is what keeps me going. I am so thankful and humbled that God relentlessly desires me and wants to use me for His kingdom even through my brokenness.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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UNEXPECTED ENCOURAGEMENTS

These past couple of weeks the pace of life has been speeding up real quick. Gladly I haven’t been really too stressed (like I usually would be) but today I felt like I was on the verge of being overwhelmed. Yesterday I was filled with joy and motivation but today… Not so much. But of course in the perfect moment God revealed His warmth in the most unexpected ways.

I’m leaving for Atlanta this Thursday for my cousin’s wedding and won’t be back until Monday. And of course the exact weekend I am gone one of my closest friends is getting married here in Cincinnati. So I’m pretty bummed I can’t make it to that but to add onto that my mentor pastor who now lives in Maryland is coming to do his wedding. The one weekend I’m not here all this great stuff is happening that I have to miss.

So I didn’t get to tell my metor yet that I won’t be here so I gave him a call this evening to break the news. Sadly I haven’t kept in touch with him as much as I should but it was awesome getting to chat tonight. The conversation was mostly on the wedding then out of nowhere he started to talk about me. Totally unexpected. He went on for minutes just speaking words of life and giving me the encouragement. It meant a lot coming from him and I really needed it.

Afterwards I went to school (again) to attempt writing a paper (which didn’t happen lol) and then I randomly got a message from one of my youth kids who now goes to a different church. Out of the blue she messaged me with a list of encouragements and compliments… Out of nowhere. 2 people who I haven’t talked to in awhile, in the same night, both speaking words of truth and life into me in the most perfect and needed time. Mind blown.

That was when I realized this wasn’t a coincidence but rather God trying to tell me something. He was moving through these individuals and their words to remove lies, doubt and negativity that were seeping into my heart. Reminding me of who I am and how HE views me. I am so thankful to have a God that truly cares about me and is intentional in loving me when I need it the most.

I saw God today.

Did you?

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